Before I Go to Sleep

Content Warning: This section of the guide includes discussion of domestic violence.

Christine meets with Dr. Nash, who returns her journal. At home, she reads the entries and notes that she has written nothing for a week. She assumes that she has not felt the need to record her thoughts since telling the truth to Ben. Christine crosses out the words “DON’T TRUST BEN” from the front of the journal.

In Ben’s office, Christine checks the metal box which is now unlocked. Inside is a copy of her novel and a photograph of herself and Ben outside Waring House. Christine searches for the pictures of Adam on Ben’s desk but only finds a sealed envelope.

Ben calls and asks if Christine has been out. She answers truthfully, saying she has seen a doctor. Ben asks her to pack their bags ready for their weekend away. Christine does so, choosing seductive heels and underwear. As she packs, she reflects on how lucky she is to have Ben. She then remembers excitedly packing for another trip and realizes she was preparing to go to Brighton.

When Ben gets home, Christine tells him she cannot find any photographs of their son.